birthdays

fact: i am not a fan of celebrating my own birthday.

and i'm sure there's some deep, psychological reason associated with it too, because isn't there always???

i'm much more comfortable being outside of the spot light than in it.
i would much rather work on surprising someone else, then have a surprise myself.
call it a lack of control, call it whatever you'd like.
it's just the way it is.

so, i've decided that tomorrow, i'm going to let my guard down and face my birthday head on....

i'm going to willingly and graciously accept the love, words of admiration, and caring thoughts.

and if i embrace the day and go into it with a positive attitude, i just might have positive results.

because truly, what do i have to loose?
....when there is so much that can be gained...